Living Life Sober & Cannabis Withdrawal

Early Saturday morning, the last Saturday of Summer 2025, and I am inspired by the Muse! This entry will be a tad different than my other entries which mainly discuss PSI and such…but there will be a thread connecting to this to my number one passion in life (i.e PSYCHISM).

Well, actually, I wrote about this topic before so it won’t be so different. I am ‘accidentally sober’ as in…I just stumbled upon living life without any substances besides caffeine. I stopped drinking back in April 2024 as my desire to drink diminished since graduating college in 2013. I then had just a few small sips of wine at my friend’s wedding in September 2024 during the speeches, but I didn’t touch that glass of wine after so I still consider April 2024 to be my starting point.

Then came my decision to no longer consume any THC products in April 2025. I guess that Spring Initiatory Energy works very well for me! My love and I went to the movies to see ‘Drop’ on April 12th. I brought my vape and took a much larger hit than I wanted to. The entire movie experience was met with me being too much in my head with racing thoughts, a tight chest, and zero pleasure in an act/ritual I have done many, many times. This wasn’t the first time I was ‘bugging’, but it was the last time.

Living life as a sober adult is fantastic! I have literally no desire to take any form of a drug. I enjoy being grounded in my body with my thoughts not racing like a race car. You’d have to pay me a great chunk of change to swallow alcohol or breath in a cannabis product.

Cannabis Withdrawal is a very real thing and a person can absolutely get addicted to cannabis and THC. I experienced the withdrawals many times when I would stop smoking bud during yesteryear. Vapes and such were pretty knew to me so I couldn’t imagine what life would be like, especially during college, if I had access to carts, pens, and all the other post-2020 THC products.

I’d say that I was definitely addicted to weed in my 20s. I was under the illusion that a person couldn’t be addicted to weed. It’s just weed, you can’t overdose. Right? Wrong!

My inner work and human homework journey and building a health self-esteem all contributed to me no longer aligning with substances. So many of my college relationships were founded on binge drinking and smoking weed. Well, let’s say that I can count on one hand the amount of people I remain in contact with from college.

But with cannabis…THC…weed…my god. What a trap! And the constant delusion I embraced to continue my habits. Habits that I thought were fine since I wasn’t hurting anyone (just hurting myself).

The first time I decided to stop smoking weed was while I worked at B&N in 2014-2015. I can’t remember the exact year I first stopped. I was in for a horror show because I was not aware of cannabis withdrawal.

Mega Insomnia. Terrible night sweats. Sweating during the day for no reason. Headaches hammering away at my head. No appetite. This lasted for weeks. Nausea. My god. This was a terrible experience! I even smelled like weed as THC sweat out my pores from what was stored in my body fat.

But…then I eventually crept back into cannabis and fooled myself again.

Over the years, I felt less and less drawn to THC. Prior to stopping in April 2025, I really took a great step back. I eventually only consumed THC at night right before bed. A tiny puff of the vape. I wasn’t enjoying being stoned like I did in my 20s and I wasn’t able to reach that pleasure cruise like I did back then.

I think the potency of modern-day cannabis also made me remove myself from that world. Everything has become too damn strong and I’m actually thankful since it pushed me into a state where I cannot stand the effects of consuming modern-day THC products.

Since 2014/2015, I would be in a start-stop cycle. I would go months to a year without any consumption then be brought back in for XYZ reason. How do I know that I won’t go back to THC again? Well, I just do.

There’s no desire in me and I appreciate the groundedness I experience in my daily life along with not being at the mercy of endless loops of intrusive thoughts.

Cannabis withdrawal is absolutely real. I can’t write that enough! I can’t even imagine what withdrawal would have been like if I was smoking vapes like I was smoking bud in my 20s.

Regarding PSYCHISM…you do not need any substance. I never consumed THC before a professional reading with a client. No no no. I respected and I do respect my clients too much. I only did when I was with friends and we decided to do XYZ and then I ended up reading them.

Believing that you need substances to do PSI is a lie.

It is much better to develop your Intuitive Instrument while in a sober state. Now, I do think there could be some benefits to cannabis for PSI development and that’s only with helping you to get into an altered state. I think it was a little helpful tool for me back in 2009, but the downsides of THC outweigh the tool-like qualities.

Don’t get me started in psychedelics. I don’t do them and I only had one psychedelic experience in my life. I…don’t trust psychedelics. That could be another entry.

You need to be CLEAR in life. CLEAR to be a great psychic medium and just a great human. Some people could be a once a week or could find no reason with consuming cannabis. I’m not one of them.

I have many regrets in my life which I face every day and these regrets fuel my desire to make positive steps everyday. I actively strive to divorce myself from shoulda-coulda-woulda. A lot of these regrets stem from my cannabis consumption.

I can’t see any benefits to consuming THC. My life has not been sunshine and rainbows and my challenges are still very much present. But I am better equipped to handle and cope with these challenges while remaining sober.

Was it a decision to live soberly? You know, I’m not too sure. The Desire just left my being. It’s just gone. I never think about it even in my worse days.

We can’t be clouded in life…can’t live in a fog. There’s too much potential for each of us to waste away via using substances as a means to cope with the Jungle of Life.

And my goodness….you do not need drugs to develop or to even use your Intuitive Instrument.