Comparison, Projections, & Return to Self

A week of self-reflection, contemplation, and a eye on what I can do to center myself in Me. I think we all go through periods of witnessing ourselves deplete our energy as we focus our gaze on others which births the illusions of comparisons and all that which corrodes our Sense of Self.

Yesterday, I felt inspired to grab my paint set and sit outside to just create. I had no plan other than to just paint whatever I streamed through me. This helped me to Withdraw my Projections. Helped me to Center. Helped me to observe the patterns of thought and emotions which shackle me into despair via Comparison.

Who doesn't, at times, feel like we're not good enough or why don't I have what others have or why am I "forced" to experience my current challenges while others seemingly have it all together?

The Illusions of the Mind run amok when we don't allow ourselves to take a step back, observe, and realize we are blanketed by nonsense.

The reading I had this weekend with a client was very special to me. This particular client returned for another reading and I just vibe with her! She's a pleasure to read and to interact with - to come in communion over a Reading. After the reading, I was just in awe at what I created and all of the comparison traps and all of my projections withered away. I felt Sure of myself and Sound in who I am as a practitioner and as a person.

Staying off social media has helped me tremendously. Deleting the YouTube app off of my phone also was a great idea that I'm glad I followed through with since I'm not plauged by clickbait, ego-mania, and narcissism.

It can be quite a challenge to acknowledge our habits of self-deteriation and then choose to think differently about ourselves. It is mental work! It isn't easy, but when we reframe our circumstances, withdraw our projections, and appreciate who we all are as individuals...then we find Self again.

My love and I went to an italian restaurant yesterday for dinner. They have an entire vegan menu so I splurged on some eggplant parmigiana. Obviously, this dish was not a healthy item, but I didn't feel guilty about indulging in a meal that was tasty and a treat! I don't eat this everyday or anything like this regularly. It was a delicious meal that I got to share with my love on a Sunday evening on Father's Day. If you're on Long Island then I suggest you head out to Pazzo in Wading River. I think I'm going to have a dinner party there for my birthday which is coming up in one month and one day!

I was even talking to my love about how proud I was about myself and my practice. How I created something and how I serve people with my skills which I worked very hard to develop. This conversation took place the evening of the reading that I had with my client on Saturday. I was in awe. I felt like I found that Sense of Self and there wasn't any words spoken about comparing myself to other practitioners. I wasn't even mentioning anyone else so all my projections and comparisons just melted away as I marinated in the good feelings that came about from doing good work and serving well.

Reframing our circumstances and denying the habitual pull to label ourselves as victims. To recognize our power to change. To acknowledge when we look at others and unleash all of our projections. To take a Mirror and Examine.

This morning, I finally made a breakfast smoothie! I've been talking to my love about how I want to make a smoothie every morning and I finally did it! I'm going to modify the recipe, but this came out delicious!

1 cup of Almond Milk (Unsweetened Vanilla)

1 cup of Oats

1 Banana

1 to 2 cups of Frozen Berries

A handful of fresh Strawberries

So so so good! Today is Day 45 of OP HEALTHBOD and I am fully embracing all the wonderful benefits which came about as me committing to Change. I'm surprised at how many changes occurred in just 45 days! I'm more energized, I'm feeling and looking slimmer/leaner, I'm at a Baseline Mood of Neutrality to Positivity, I'm just...I'm in awe once again!

We can change. It takes time. We start off small and we must take the Mirror to Examine resulting in a consistent self-reflection practice where we resist destroying our Sense of Self by denying the habit of comparing our lives to others and to withdraw our projections.