Substance Abuse, Culture, & Drinking

A beautiful Tuesday morning of the last week in May 2025! I'm inspired to write about substance abuse and my own journey pulling myself out of a hellscape. I do not consider myself to be classified as an abuser of substances, but I can see how my life's story could have drastically changed if I made different choices.

I'm vibing to Taeyeon's 'INVU' song so I'm going to post it here. There are some KPOP songs that push all the right buttons for me and this song was married to the Muse who inspired this post.

I believe that this post's inspiration started over this past weekend when I traveled to NYC for a college friend's birthday. I wrote about this is a previous entry. I also wrote many times about how I stopped consuming alcohol back in April 2024 so I won't really go into that too much.

It was quite an experience hanging out with my college friends without consuming any substances. I really do not "go out" so I can't remember the last time I went to a bar! I had my coffee and diet coke without a single thought or desire to just grab a drink and join everyone. Literally no thoughts.

We all come from a college that was unique. A bubble on Staten Island. Like pretty much every college...binge drinking was the name of the game along with endless clouds of cannabis smoke. Thursday...Friday...Saturday...sometimes Sunday. And let me tell you...I was all about that. Many unhealed wounds of mine which I would not acknowledge and I clearly used binge drinking and endless consumption of cannabis to disassociate from reality. I did not want to look at XYZ. I did not want to think about XYZ. I wanted to live in Illusion.

I find that many of my peers in my age bracket are left caught in that wheel of drinking habits. Making it to Friday and then binge drink. Brunch on the weekend with bottomless drinks. Hangovers normalized and everything about drinking culture originates from our college days or just being an adult that is around my age. I graduated high school in 2009 and college in 2013 so I'm speaking of my generation and not specifically the people I went to college with. The generation.

You'd have to pay me $1,000,000.00 to consume alcohol again. Even one sip and I feel changed. I feel different. I feel Influenced. Do not even get me started on our Culture (Cult-ture) and the normalization of alcohol and especially binge drinking. Partying and all that jazz. I admit that one of my favorite shows in college was Jersey Shore. Not that I wanted to become a "guido", but just living vicariously through people who were so different from me while we shared the commonality of binge drinking.

My work exposed to me to many different types of people - those who are still in-body and those who are in energy form (Spirits). I channeled many spirits who left physicality due to substance abuse. I read for people psychically who are on their paths of recovery from substance abuse. I see the Damage...the Wreckage...the Consequences left for people to either avoid or face because of substance abuse.

Often Spirits who died of substance abuse share with me that they are in a form of "school" and are learning about the consequences of their actions. Healthy shame and guilt. Feeling, Seeing, Hearing, Knowing the Consequences and how their actions influenced the lives of their loved ones. A desire to become better.

You know...going to a few bars while I was recently in NYC was eye opening. As I mentioned in another entry, I did not feel pressured from my college friends to drink. They respect me and I respect them. I wouldn't be friends with them if they were shaming me or trying to get me to do something I did not want to do. No no no, they'd be cut out of my life. But! It was so interesting being sober and just around people in a bar who are drinking. I'm trying to find words to describe this, but I'll settle on just that it was different compared to my days drinking and going to bars.

Waking up the next morning after returning from NYC, feeling fresh, sitting with my body as it just does what it does every morning, returning from NYC and not being hungover...Magic. I cherish my mornings so much! I love waking up with the sun, brewing coffee, sitting on my couch, reading and writing, and then being here when my love wakes up from his slumber.

My binge drinking days were a terror. I changed course after college. I transformed. I am not the person that I was while at Wagner College. I'm not the person who was known by my pledge name from my Fraternity.

I really enjoy witnessing people transform. This is my favorite aspect of my work as a psychic medium. Being with people who use me as a Tool and then they make the choices to change. Being with people who transformed even before they came to me for a reading. I often find myself reading the subreddit r/stopdrinking because I'm interested in the Mind/Body/Spirit Complex of Addiction. I watched many episodes of Intervention. There is just something so fascinating to me about substance abuse and Drugs, Brain, & Behavior was my favorite class in college.

I wonder where this inspiration shall take me. I acknowledge the Breadcrumbs laid before me and how I chose to act on them which led me to this blog entry on 5/27/25. Am I supposed to work with people struggling with substance abuse? Do I shift gears and work at some facility? I'm not a therapist so I will not be offering services for drug counseling. But! Is there a new path opening before me? I shall see!

The normalization of binge drinking and the aftermath of those years carried into adulthood. My generation specfically. The tail-end of Pluto in Scorpio. Our Culture and really the mass hypnotist strategies to glorify alcohol and binge drinking.

I only experience the benefits of no longer consuming alcohol. Cannabis...I've come a long journey with that. I'm on a break from cannabis and its been almost 2 months since I last used my vape. That's another entry for sure, but my most recent consumption of cannabis was just at night right before bed and just a tiny puff without desiring to be stoned.

Substances. The effects of substance abuse. The various shades of substance abuse.

If you're struggling with substance abuse then I highly recommend you find the courage within you to request the assistance you need to change your life for the better. I'm thinking about you and I hope you find the strength to Transform.